Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Late Summer, Early Fall 2014

I'm in college. A lot of time has gone by since I first typed out a few ambivalent lines on this portion of the cyber world. Back then this thing went by a different name; but then, I went by a different name too. We're both different now. Unsurprisingly to everyone but me I have ended up a photography minor, so my love affair with chemical photography is not yet over. For now I give you a few pictures from my phone that sum up the last few weeks, days, and minutes of my life.
It feels quiet and slow in my head in comparison to the past year. I've taken a little time to stare out the window, and stop in the middle of an empty street, and to peer in to my little dog's eyes and convince myself I'm reading his thoughts the way he can read mine. It gives me a little peace, these small indulgences. Change is being commanded on us like a dictatorial force of intangible strength, and the only thing I can come up with to combat it is to fall complacently into the small moments of pause and placid certainty. I feel like I can do that where I am now, for some reason, even if darkness is dropping in corners of my world -that are not so far after all- again.

Sunday, April 6, 2014

Winter and Early Spring

I feel really stupid writing things on here these days. No matter what I say it sounds dumb. And I don't want to write just because i feel obligated to, to go along with the pictures, so I'll let the pictures speak for themselves for right now.

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Life Lately

It's been half a year of becoming a different person  to write something here again. I've started bringing my camera with me everywhere like I would in high school. It reminds me of the person I used to be. Senior year seems like it was in a different century, part of a different life. I've only just begun to talk about the person that I used to be with the new friends I've made. My roommate found a picture from high school with my short hair and she didn't believe it was me.

Life is generally pretty exciting here, but I'm not so good at explaining it these days. Visiting so many different places has really made photographing interesting things easy.

Monday, June 3, 2013

Too Burned To Function

My face hurts. A lot.
The past week has been too lovely for a little sunburn to ruin it, but I was feeling guilty that this here blog was not getting any love, so I give you this miserable face looking at you from the torture of my bedroom covered in sliced aloe limbs trying their hardest to sooth my burning skin.
My computer is still very much broken so all of the pictures that I have been saving to put on here are still sitting around taking up room on memory cards. I don't like it any more than you do, folks.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

On "Missing the Boat"

It seems like I'm always missing the boat on important life shaping "things", so when everyone is off doing stuff that I always figured I'd be doing at one point I am left trying to figure out when people started doing them and how. I think about them and over-think about them, then I dissect the way in which I'm over-thinking about them until I'm writing blog posts about the way I think about over-thinking them. The "things" in question are, in general terms, events and new experiences that run the adolescent life gamut from laughably mediocre to revelatory life-changing moments. I have an unfortunate way of dissecting conversations, body language, casual comments and long pauses until I am a neurotic ball of over-analyzation. This goes beyond the realm of the friendly empath; I'm a bit of a loony. So what I mean when I say "missing the boat" is that I seem to spend so much time talking about my teen angsty emotions that I can't actually get myself out the door to experience something worth talking about.

Phew I'm glad I got that in to words. Only took a couple of years worth of accumulated anxiety.

I think I am going to go out and think about experiencing things on my lawn instead of in my room. Maybe it will be the push I need to motivate me towards human interaction.